Sunday, December 31, 2006
For your info, Syazwan is not going to UK anymore. The doctors at St Barts informed us that the tumor is too big for the operations. the only thing that we could do now is to send him for that painful chemo at HKL, the same one he got before with a greatest hope that it will do a miracle.
Lest, only two things that could happen. either lose the eye or worse it affect his health.
I just don't know and don't want to think or do about it for now.
the only thing i could think of now is to bring him to Bird Park to let him see the birds . Of course not the same sweetly chirping birds we tried to befriend with at Jalan U Thant few weeks ago.
At least that is the best thing I could do now for him.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
At Syazwan's house.
shy at first....
5 minutes after that, he is already playing with Farouq
the family. the girl with red pyjama is his eldest sister-victim of retinoblastoma
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Anyway, Dr Sunder said John Hungerford of St Barts reassures us that they are trying to maintain the cost at 7000 GBP sterling and it seems their response is warmer than the Wills Eye.
Dr Sunder will email me the details this evening.
Monday, December 25, 2006
Love means to learn to look at yourself
Friday, December 22, 2006
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Monday, December 18, 2006
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
I just want to highlight an urgent appeal for Mohd Syazwan Johari, 3 years old will be going to seek a very urgent cancerous right eye treatment at Wills Eye Hospital,Philadelphia, USA.He already lost his left eye due to retinablastoma. He will be accompanied by his blind mom and my colleague, Puan Fadzilah Wan, Volunteer Coordinator for MAKNA.
The trip is supposed to be funded by Ministry of Health Malaysia (for the treatment cost & lodging) and Yayasan Kebajikan Negara (for travel cost) and my organisation, The National Cancer Council MAKNA (for daily stipends). We already making the arrangement with Malaysian community in Philly to help out with food and winter clothing during their stay for 18 days course of treatment.
However we received a very bad news today when Ministry of Health of Malaysia didn't approved the funding for unknown reason. He is supposed to go last Sunday 10th Dec.Now without the funding, the trip looks bleak.Still, we believe it can be done.
What they need:
Funds of USD12,500 or RM50,000 for the treatment cost. The rest is covered by MAKNA and Yayasan Kebajikan Negara. Just the treatment cost.
What you can do:
- Help to fundraise for this young boy. Every dollars and Ringgit counts! You can bank in the funds to Syazwan's mom Ambank account in Malaysia. Email me for the details please.
- Help to spread the words!
If you are interested to help or further info please contact me via email:
firstname.lastname@example.org or my mobile 6019-6925192.
I can give you further details ( medical reports/treatment cost/)
detail of treatment cost for Syazwan at Wills Eye Hospital
medical reports of Adik Mohd Syazwan Johari
passport of Adik Syazwan for the trip
Monday, December 11, 2006
a reply to ponder deeply indeed.
Waalaikum salam wrt wbh,
Thank you Iskandar for your message. Alhamdulillah for the award but I am not motivated by awards and such. You are right about the quotation and it is also in the Prophet's saw hadith that doing good will always for some reason I still cannot comprehend bring a lot of challenges. It is Sunatullah and I redha, though it is very irritating.It will not stop me from trying hard to make this place a better world,inshallah, in any capacity I can.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Monday, December 04, 2006
"As soon as one wishes to do any good act, one is sure to make enemies. Should one render a service of any kind whatever, one can be certain of meeting with people who will try and crush you. Whether you write prose or verse, or you build a town, it is all the same; you will arouse a persecuting jealousy. There is only one way to escape from that harpy; never write anything but your epitaph, never construct anything except a monument for your tomb and get inside it as quickly as you can."
an extract from a letter written by Voltaire on 4 October 1771 to Madame La Marquise du Deffand
Clowning for health
By ALLAN KOAY
If you see a man with a red nose and an infectious smile in the hospital, he is probably Iskandar Syah Ismail, a clown dedicated to cheering up sick children. Clowning is far more than just a circus act.
WITH the care of a surgeon, Iskandar Syah Ismail folds the edges of a piece of cigarette paper, then holds the folded paper between his index and middle fingers. Then he turns his body and the paper not only sticks to his middle finger but spins.
Voila! A “finger propeller.” It looks rather magical and is a lot of fun to try too, but certainly not easy to do. Yet it’s easy to see how children would respond to such fun antics, especially from a guy with a bulbous red nose and an infectious smile.
Iskandar is a clown, but not just any clown. He is, in fact, a hospital clown who is dedicated to entertaining sick children in hospitals. The finger propeller is just one of the many tricks he learned in his years of study to perfect his act. Iskandar, a senior executive with the National Cancer Council (Makna), has been into hospital clowning since 2002, and back then he was completely self-taught.
“I used to visit the children in the hospitals who were cancer patients,” says the 30-year-old. “I realised they live in an environment that is scary and boring. I tried to find ways to entertain them, and I did my own research into how to address the issue. At first I was interested in the concept of using art in health, such as murals. But I realised it's not interactive.”
As he went along, he discovered the concept of clown doctors, how the Big Apple Circus in New York has its own clown care unit with performers wearing doctor's uniforms and red noses.
“But they are not doctors,” says Iskandar. “They're just there to entertain the children. From there I began to get to know more. I knew if I wanted to do it, I would have to learn how to be a clown.”
At a hospital in Laos, where he went as a volunteer worker, he learned the valuable lesson that clowning was a universal language that broke down all barriers.
“The American doctors there told me they had these kids from the mountains,” Iskandar explains. “Since the kids didn't even speak Laotian, the doctors didn't know how to cheer them up. My first clown costume consisted of a red nose that I got from a friend in Malaysia, a skullcap with polka dots, and shoes with stickers. And that was my first time clowning. But it was fun.”
In 2003, he went to the University of Wisconsin in the US to study the concept of caring clowns. He attended the one-week clown camp, learned how to use props and mingled with those who had done hospital clowning.
It was there that he discovered his clown persona, Dr Bubbles, because he loved to play with bubbles when he was clowning. But he quickly realised that if he relied solely on props, he would very soon run out of ideas. He decided to delve even deeper into the art of clowning.
“After 2003, I went to the US again to study theatre clowning with Avner Eisenberg,” he reveals. “He's one of the master clowns and teachers of physical comedy. So I enrolled myself in his course called Eccentric Performing at the Celebration Barn theatre. I went there under the Ministry of Arts and Heritage grant and also Makna. I was there for two weeks, and that was the first time I performed in front of people.”
At the end of the course, the participants had to present their act in front of a paying audience. Dr Bubbles’ act involved trying to eat a peanut butter sandwich, which had fallen to the floor, without getting off his stool.
“Avner taught us that clowning is not about being funny,” Iskandar explains. “Instead, we have to focus on what we're doing. If we face a problem on stage, we focus on that problem. But the process of overcoming that problem is what makes the audience laugh. In fact, when the audience laugh, it is also an interruption that you have to deal with.”
In fact, he was so focused on his performance that he did not realise the audience was laughing, until people told him about it after the show. Clowning is not about making balloons, funny faces or falling down, he says. It is about interacting with the audience in an honest way. He says to get on stage, a clown has to even ask for the audience’s permission, what is known as “seeking complicity with the audience.” What he learned is theatre clowning, which does not necessarily require make-up.
“People will know you're a clown just by the way you behave and react,” he says. “For example, why do people love Mr Bean even when he doesn't wear make-up? And there are clowns who wear make-up but are not funny!”
But hospital clowning is very demanding, he says. One needs a big heart to do it because one is dealing with sick children.
“There are some very good clowns out there who lack the courage when it comes to hospital clowning,” says Iskandar. “And it is very difficult to work in a hospital because the environment is different and you're interacting with sick children. You will definitely be affected. You need a lot of courage to do it.
“One of the concepts that we learned in hospital clowning is that you have to be in the moment. You have to put your problems aside. You only return to the real world after the performance.”
Iskandar is a qualified chemical engineer but has never worked in that field. He has always been involved in volunteer work with NGOs.
Asked what it is he finds most rewarding about hospital clowning, Iskandar’s answer is obvious: “To see the children smile. You never get tired of it.”
Thursday, November 30, 2006
I will cherish this precious moment forever.That was Harraz Haiman or TIN TIN (muka sebijik macam cartoon Tin Tin!) as we fondly called him, clad with bright yellow coloured Elmo's bag and enjoying his 1 year old birthday present with his grandparents; discovering the fact that he can finally walk!
Ah, it reminds me of what Louis Pasteur once said,
"When I approach a child, he inspires in me two sentiments; tenderness for what he is, and respect for what he may become."
Monday, November 27, 2006
Friday, November 24, 2006
Monday, November 20, 2006
Monday, November 13, 2006
Friday, November 10, 2006
I was halfway through with the bookshelf I decided to have a little “nice words” with the kids outside my house.
I opened the sliding doors and through the grill I saw 2 or 3 kids with bicycles and I said nicely,
“Adik, boleh tak main kat tempat lain?Kalau apa apa hal tak pun barang hilang dari rumah orang, adik pulak kena tuduh nanti”.
One of the kids, the smallest,
“Ok, ok , kami faham” and they walked away.
For a while I was glad.
A minute later when I returned to finish assembling the shelf, I realized.
“Have I say something wrong? They are just bunch of kids who see my house as their safe place” I reasoned.
“Perhaps, I was too quick to judge them” I quietly said to myself.
“Do they pose problem to me so far?”
The answer is quite clear. I was wrong.
I quickly finished hit the last nails into the bookshelf and prepared myself for my routine walk at Bukit Indah Forest Reserve. As I drove out from the house, I saw the kids again at the junction.
I slowly stopped the van and rolled the window. I said,
“ Dik, bukan saya tak bagi adik main di rumah saya tu. Ada besi tutup lubang tempat kumbah tu pecah”. Yes there is a broken septic tank cover situated in the house compound that has not been replaced for quite sometime.
“Takut nanti kamu main di situ terjatuh.” I reasoned nicely.
The smallest kid replied,
“ Ooo..pakcik tak marah lah kami main kat sana ya?”
“Tak. Tapi pakcik takut awak jatuh dalam lubang tu” I explained.
“ OOo..pakcik risau kat kami lah ya..OK..kami faham” He said.
“Jadi, pakcik tak kisah kami main kat sana?” He cleverly negotiated their terms.
“Tak tapi hati hatilah”. OK..you WIN!
Phew. Yesterday, One thing I learned, that it’s better to explain something with care with the young rather than scolding or shouting at them right away without explaining the reasons behind it. You will never get their respect.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Monday, November 06, 2006
Friday, November 03, 2006
Orang tua-tua kata,
Kalau padi, katakan padi,
Tidak saya tertampi-tampi,
Kalau sudi, katakan sudi,
Tidak saya ternanti-nanti.
On the other hand,
Kalau matahari tinggi segalah,
Mari solat sunat 2 rakaat,
Kalau tak sudi cakap ajelah,
boleh saya beli oven EUROPA cepat-cepat!
ha..jawab jangan tak jawab!
(Nota: pantun ke-2 itu tiada maksud atau niat apa-apa untuk menyinggung perasaan sesiapa termasuk salesman oven Europa)
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
I found that the advice by Sir Laurence Olivier in his book, "On Acting" (Wiedenfield & Nicholson, 1986) is very much relevant to theatrical clowning work.
"Members of the audience must be respected.They must never be underestimated.
It's very easy to sneer behind your handkerchief and wink at your fellows in
the wings, but among that sea of faces beyond the footlights someone will know.
It is the same wherever you go, in all form of entertainment:You respect
them, they may respect you.They can be manipulated, of course,but that something
This they enjoy, this is why they are here; but they must not be
handled clumsily or obviously."
I guess that's why I don't laugh when watching Senario or Gitu Gitu Apek or perhaps AHA!
Thursday, October 19, 2006
I know how you felt about The New York Clown Festival recently. I know you can't hide your frustation with what you have gone through. To be in some good workshops yet trapped in some bad ones - watched some good and Bad shows and to admit that it wasn't much what you are looking for especially after spending considerable sum of money just to go there.
And today while trying to push it away from your mind, you got a surprise email from The Whynot Institute informing that Angela de Castro is conducting her almost annual 2 weeks intensive masterclass workshop" How to be a Stupid" in London from 20th November to 1st December 2006 for GBP450 only. Aaaaaaahh! How you wish you knew this earlier and perhaps you could scrapped off the New York trip for this workshop.
Well, that's life. you found and grab something and you might missed something. You just don't know. It's not a failure. Don't you ever think like that. In clown world, you embrace failure with chin up attitude and just march on.
I know how you wish you could have lots of money to just fly to London in 3 weeks time and learn as much as you can from this inspiring lady and return to teach fellow clowns under your wings. Could it be possible? It might. You have done many impossible things since you embarked for this journey. Trust your intuition my friend. You know that you all along never listen to the voices that always says, " It can't be done" and you will prove otherwise. By all means -Just follow your heart and do what is necessary.
An intensive, challenging journey into the state of clowning with masterclown Angela de Castro
Monday 20 November to Friday 1 December 2006
‘How To Be A Stupid’ is a full-time full-on course into the state of clowning - intense and challenging but profoundly transformatory as well. For beginners and those more experienced who need refreshing, refocusing or a burst of energy, this course will take you on a profoundly challenging journey, with laughs and play along the way.
For Angela de Castro, clowning is not a technique but a state, a state of imagination. How To Be A Stupid will take you on a journey to find and maintain that state. Through exercises and games, this practical course takes participants through a process that helps them find their clown within and experience this persona in the state of clowning.
Week one of the workshop is an introduction to Angela de Castro’s method and the search for the clown persona. The aim is to encourage participants to discover their own clown style and their clown within. Week two takes participants onto more advanced clowning techniques and the creation of The Land of Why Not.
For those of you who are already clowns, this process will help you find truthfulness and depth in your clowning, encompassing the tragic as much as the comic. For actors and other performers, this process will help make your performing more real, more individual, more joyful. For beginners and those who just want an experience of personal development, the course will take you on a transformatory journey of discovery.
How To Be A Stupid is a unique masterclass in clowning. Come prepared for challenges and change. How To Be A Stupid changes your approach to your work and your life, as the state of clowning/ imagination is the starting point for the creative process in any field.
This workshop is demanding, intense, inspiring and emotional, with lots to discover for beginners in clowning and reassurance for those who are already clowning and need a burst of energy.
“I expected it to be very difficult. The truth was that the clown state was difficult for everyone, actors included. The emotions they convey are yours and they’re about you, no one else. You have to be brave to do that. The clown state is also incredibly fragile: you come out of it very easily. De Castro explained that she had discovered a few years ago that teaching was as much part of her mission as being a clown. We never once doubted how serious she was about this. She only showed a technique to help us understand, never as an opportunity to show off. But boy is she talented! I don’t think I have the ability to turn the clown state into a performance per se. Who knows… meanwhile I can see that the single most important factor behind my sweetest moments so far is flashes of courage. Let’s have more!”
Date: Monday 20 November to Friday 1 December
(please note: Monday to Friday only for both weeks)
Time: 9.30am to 6pm daily
Place: Islington, London
Open for: HTBAS is open to all performers, non-performers and anyone
who would like to do personal research on the way they present
themselves. There is a limit of 12 places and participants must
be aged 18+.
Availability: You need to be available for the whole workshop because it
follows a process which the whole group needs to go through
together. It is not possible for participants to take time off for
other commitments or to arrive late/leave early.
Fee: If you book between July and 30 September, you can reserve
your place by sending a non-refundable deposit of £100. The
remainder of the fee is due by 1 November. For those booking from 1 October, the full fee must be paid when you apply. The booking form tells you how to send your fee.
T&C: Please make sure you read the terms and conditions on the
booking form carefully before you apply, especially those
relating to cancellation and attendance.
The Why Not Institute
020 7739 8363 email@example.com
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
just got kad raya from a cancer patient i met for a brief moment not so long time ago. He wrote,
Selamat menjalani ibadat puasa.
Terima kasih diucapkan di atas bantuan kewangan yang diberikan oleh MAKNA.
Sekarang ini saya dirujuk semula ke Hospital Besar Kuantan.
Laporan CT Scan yang terakhir menunjukkan keputusan positif sehinggakan doktor-2 tidak mempercayainya. Tumor di kawasan pankreas didapati sembuh sepenuhnya.
Namun masih perlu rawatan susulan. Berjumpa Pakar Bedah di HTAA serta oncologist HKL yang datang ke HTAA setiap 2 bulan. 3 atau 4 bulan sekali perlu dibuat CT scan dan diperiksa kandungan darah. Bimbang ianya berulang."
His parting words really struck deep into my heart.
Harap Allah memanjangkan usia kita. Selamat Berjumpa kembali.
Mohd Azmi Awang
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to you all. Harap Allah memanjangkan usia kita.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
I think i wrote this in 1999 after watching BBC coverage on the earthquake in Turkey that left 14,000 dead.
seorang anak menyaksi semua,
45 saat terlalu lama
tiada ibu disisi
bapa telah jauh pergi
hanya tindihan konkrit
si cilik Chemin
sebuah masjid menyaksi semua,
seorang tua asyik dgn quran usang,
ditepi runtuhan 7 tingkat
menguis serpihan raksasa,
yang semakin diam.
sebuah dunia menyaksi semua,
laungan soldadu atarturk
mendiamkan azan di hagia sophia
kini lesu keliru
akibat bentak menyalah manusia
yang kian muak dengan opresi
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
STARians 89 -93 (guess which one is me? clue: gua dulu slim and jambu!)
Monday, October 09, 2006
As she was busy helping, my nephew Amin entered the kitchen and remarked,
" Alhamdulillah, ada orang basuh pinggan!"
I love the story of Daniel "RUDY" Ruettiger in the film"Rudy". Such an inspiring guy he is. Below are his insights on winning at life.
Insight #1 Be the person you want to be.
"Make the decision to take action and move closer to your Dream. Create daily success habits and surround yourself with information that will empower and inspire you."
Insight #2 Use anger in a positive way to get results.
"Anger is a normal reaction. It's what you do with anger that makes a difference in your life ... direct your anger towards a goal ... use anger in a positive way to get results ... from anger comes determination ... comes triumph."
Insight #3 It starts with a Dream.
"Visualize your Dream and make a commitment. Having a Dream is what makes life exciting. Never underestimate the power of a Dream. It will change your life. A Dream gives you the ability to determine your future."
Insight #4 Eliminate the confusion.
"Find mentors who encourage you. The right information will eliminate confusion. Visualize exactly what you want to be ... and focus on that ... believe in yourself and don't let anything stop you. Reinforce your Dream every day with positive information from tapes, books, and mentors. Each day you will get closer to your Dream. Eliminate the confusion and fears, and make it happen."
Insight #5 The greater the struggle, the greater the victory.
"Most people allow struggles and fear of failure to stop them. The key is to learn from your struggles and move on. Failures will make you stronger and give you the information you need to reach your Dream. Struggle will prepare you for success. Without struggle there is no success."
Insight #6 Follow your passion instead of the dollar.
"There's nothing wrong with making money ... but, it's important to focus on your passion instead of the dollar. For me, decisions based on my passion brought me closer to my Dream, while decisions based only on money took me further away. If you focus on what really fulfills you, you will have success. The dollar alone does not bring happiness."
Insight #7 Excuses will kill your Dream.
"What we're really talking about here is commitment. Until you make a commitment to your Dream, it's not really a Dream ... it's just another fantasy full of excuses. Fantasies don't come true because they're not real, we're not committed to them. When we make commitments, we eliminate excuses and they become Dreams ... and Dreams are definitely real."
Insight #8 Prepare for your Dream.
"Preparation is what comes from struggle. Knowledge comes from preparation. These are the elements that pave the road to your Dream. If we do not prepare we will not succeed. Set your goals and pursue your Dreams with all your heart. If you miss a goal, don't quit, reset it! You just need to learn more ... step by step you will win!"
Insight #9 Focus on your Dream and Never Quit.
It is always too soon to quit. If you quit, you can't succeed. By achieving your Dream you will be an inspiration to others. You will set the example and make an enormous impact on the world. Make it happen!"
Insight #10 Always have a Dream.
"Dreams give us energy to go to new levels. Dreams change lives ... the power of life is in your Dreams!"
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Terima kasih diatas nikmat yang kau berikan iaitu sekeping PIZZA STUFFED CRUST PEPPERONI (separuh lagi ROYAL MASALA) LARGE untuk hambamu ini berbuka puasa hari ini.
Dan juga selamatkan perjalanan budak Pizza Hut yang naik motorsikal menghantar pizza itu pada petang ini pergi dan balik.
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Just bought John Wright's " Why is that so Funny" from Amazon.com. I will get it in 2 weeks time. Hilary Chaplain mentioned about it when we had drinks at Catfish near The Brick Theatre after her show.
I finished James Bradley's "Flag of Our Fathers" while in NYC and grabbed Rory Stewart's "The Places in Between" at Newark Airport on the way home.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
Glad to be back. Jetlagged still.
Just got news from my sister that her MIL passed away in Mekah. Road Accident costing 9 lives. Have yet to get full details.
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
- Jef Johnson: Unlocking the Life of the Clown
Jef Johnson is a principal clown in the company of Slava's Snowshow. As clown, he toured with Cirque du Soleil and also served as Artistic Director for the tour's 2003 stage parody of Dralion in Mexico City. Other theatrical roles include The Cat in the Hat in Seussical, Fool in Dario Fo's Accidental Death of an Anarchist, Major in Goldoni's Mirandolina, Harpagon in Moliere's The Miser, Cowardly Lion in The Wizard of OZ. He has more than fifteen years experience in costume character and large format puppet performance, walk around character development and free form clown performance.
He has studied in a wide range of Old World disciplines, including Clown, Mask, Mime, Dance, Commedia Dell'arte, Circus and Improvisation.
- Sue Morrison: Clown Intensive Workshop
Sue Morrison, Artistic Director of the Theatre Resource Centre, has been teaching, directing and collaborating on Clown and Bouffon across the globe for 25 years. Today, Morrison's unique and powerful work brings together the diverse elements of Native American and European Clowning, Bouffon, le Jeu and Improvisation.
Her students are currently featured in Cirque du Soliel, The Blue Man Group, Slava's Snow Show, the Second City and on other International stages. She has taught at the dell'Arte School of Physical Theatre and teaches and creates regularly with the LUME group of Brazil. She has also been a presenter at International Theatre Conferences in Brazil and Argentina. Her work has been the focus of several International documentaries.
- Chris Bayes workshops: The Greatest Trick in the World: a celebration of the stupid! & The Flop: the clowns capacity for tragedy.
Chris Bayes has directed numerous plays including Red Noses, Four by Feydeau, The Bourgeois Gentleman, The Moliere One Acts, The Love of Three Oranges, The Imaginary Invalid, The New Place by Carlo Goldoni, We Won't Pay, and his new adaptation of Molière's The Reluctant Doctor of Love, all at the Juilliard School and NYU's Graduate Acting Program. He has staged original works including Wreckage at P.S. 122, The Big Day and The Fiasco Bro. Circus at Juilliard, Zibaldon? at HERE, The Fools/Los Locos Del Pueblo at Touchstone Theater, and Necromance, A Night of Conjuration at Dixon Place.
Regional directing credits include shows at the Intiman in Seattle, the Court in Chicago, the Idaho Shakespeare Festival, and Yale Repertory Theater. Chris has served on the faculty of the Juilliard School, the Actor's Center, Yale School of Drama, the Academy of Classical Acting at the Shakespeare Theater in Washington D.C., NYU's Graduate Acting Program, and as the Director of Movement and Physical Theater at the Brown/Trinity Consortium. His new book, detailing his approach to clown and acting is due out this Spring.
Monday, August 28, 2006
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Friday, August 25, 2006
I am facing a dilemma.
Stay, attend the compulsory in-house training, and brighten my chance
to get promotion?
Follow my heart and go to NYC live up my dreams but forsaken a step higher in my career ladder?
If you are in my shoes, what will you do?
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Kuala Lumpur - 20 Ogos
Jurucakap bagi pihak DR Bubbles memaklumkan bahawa tiada sebarang posting esok sebagai tanda perkabungan. Namun apabila ditanya media, jurucakap yang tidak mahu dikenali memberitahu bahawa ia tidak ada kena mengena dengan perkahwinan Siti Nurhaliza dan Datuk K esok.
Media juga dimaklumkan bahawa Dr Bubbles sedang berkhalwat di kaki Gunung Ledang sambil menunggu "khabar penting" dari kampungnya di Jerantut. Apabila ditanya kot kot Dr Bubbles berada di kaki Gunung Ledang untuk mengenen-ngenen Gusti Puteri Raden Ajeng Retno Dumilah. Menurutnya, Gusti Puteri tak ada di istananya kerana sedang membintangi teater muzikal di Kuala Lumpur yang bertajuk;
" Strawberi, Petai dan Coklat"
Friday, August 18, 2006
Saya belajar sesuatu hari ini.
"Jangan sesekali menghalang rezeki orang lain "
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
On YM today with a long lost friend.
Mr X: adik2 ko dah kawin ke?
adabi99: adik aku dah
adabi99: tinggal lagi 3
Mr X: ko nie tak ader calon lagi ke...
adabi99: hek ele
Mr X: atau sibuk sgt dgn career
adabi99: ko ni punya lama tak jumpa pasal kawin ko sibuk tanya aku
adabi99: tanyala benda lain yang sesuai sikit
Mr X: ok ler... sorry.. sensitive ko skrg nie
adabi99: bukan ko sorang aje yang tanya malah beribu ribu orang
adabi99: lama lama malas nak jawab beb
Mr X: ok ler...
adabi99: u don't have to worry whether i wil get marry or
adabi99: let me worry about that
Mr X: mcm mana dgn clown ko ty
adabi99: hope you understand
adabi99: will do my workshop soon
By the way I am seeing pyschiatrist next week to figure out what I am not married yet. If it still does not settle my problem, I am going to Medan to get one. Puas hati??
Nota: Dont' worry ! tiada cewek cewek Medan yang di"rosakkan" dalam perbualan yang sungguh bengong ini.
Monday, August 14, 2006
I love these words in a letter by artist Sol Le Witt to an unknown painter in the early 1960s , Eva Hesse who wrote to him asking for advice on how to get unstuck.
“Just stop thinking, worrying, looking over your shoulder, wondering, doubting,fearing, hurting, hoping for some easy way out, struggling, gasping, confusing, itching, scratching, mumbling, bumbling, grumbling, humbling, stumbling, rumbling, rambling, gambling, tumbling, scumbling, scrambling, hitching, hatching, bitching, moaning, groaning, honing, boning…searching, perching, besmirching, grinding grinding grinding away at yourself.
Stop it and just DO…
Try tickle something inside you, your “weird humor.” You belong in the most secret part of you. Don’t worry about cool, make your own uncool. If you fear, make it work for you – draw and paint your fear and anxiety. And stop worrying about big, deep things such as “to decide on a purpose and way of life..”
You must practice being stupid, dumb, unthinking, empty. Then you will be able to DO! I have much confidence in you and even though you are tormenting yourself, the work you do is very good. Try to do some BAD work. The worst you can think of and see what happens but mainly relax and let everything go to hell.”
Eva Hesse abandoned her painting career and went on to create sculptures and became a major artist by the the time she was 30. Sadly, Hesse had only a few short years in which to fulfill her creative vision. She died of cancer, in 1970, at 34.